Here is a brief look at what my next week will look like.
Tomorrow bright and early I start my 5 hour chemo session at 8 am…blah. The next day I have to get a CT scan to map out the game plan for radiation at 1:30 and then right back to chemo at 2:30. After that I have one more session of chemo and then a nice shot in the arm that will make my bones hurt for three + days to help my white blood cells produce.
Not so stoked about this one. It is like a roller coaster that I never chose to get on and none of the other riders chose it either. I just got back to feeling normal and then here comes the third fall, but this one has several corkscrews and back flips that will make me feel worse.
I’m learning something though. Bad days are not so bad when you have Jesus. I think many people define a day’s goodness or badness on what happens in it. The goal being to have the best day of your life and then the next day have the best day of your life better than previous. Such a goal will leave us feeling like failures or make us bitter and blame others because the reality is bad things happen to everyone sooner or later. Bad things may happen as consequences for bad choices or they may seem completely random and maybe even undeserved.
Truth is, Jesus gives us a greater measure of goodness in that through His sacrifice we have been gifted eternal life. To me that is going to be the best days of our lives and my own pursuit of happiness is like a child playing in a 4 x 4 sandbox having never experienced the ocean’s seemingly never ending sandbox. Or a better comparison, a child sitting alone making mud pies thinking it can’t get any better than this, but they have yet to visit Disney Land.
Unless you’re Kim Jong Un…
Jesus says it best, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
Cancer is trouble, but I have Jesus who has saved my soul and who is my future hope.