I came prepared, having drank 66 ounces of water and ready for anything. The coach that morning gave us a lot of info about side effects and drugs and all sorts of useful things. My treatment would start at noon so we had a little time to kill. We went to the new city target and got some good shopping done… finally got some pants that fit YAY!
Time finally came and my mind wondered about what it will really be like to have poison flowing through my veins. You gotta do what you gotta do, one of my frequent sayings. As the drip began it felt like nothing really, just cold. As time passed not much happened other than talking to Sarah, having to pee all the time and a lot of thinking about life. I made this video for you to watch too.
Though in this current moment I feel very dizzy, tired, and just plain sick, I can’t help but feel joy. I am so happy to be surrounded by a life giving community that is so uplifting and so full of God’s Spirit. God has been teaching me His sovereignty and my faith in His plan has grown significantly as I read scripture about how God used the patriarchs who honestly failed miserably yet God still was with them. We to have all failed in so many ways to keep God’s standard but His love does not change. It does not matter what sin is infused with your life because God can handle it if you bring it to Him.
Cancer is like a living metaphor of sin in that it is cells that are rebelling against the body. It may start small and harmless but it grows quickly and will kill you. Jesus is sometimes called the great physician and this fits perfectly. Sin is the cancer that only Jesus can save us from. It doesn’t matter what sage you have allowed your sin/cancer to grow to Jesus can heal you completely and it is not because we deserve it. It is grace. So you may be living in the worst deviant manner or maybe you just keep telling lies for various reasons, but if you are reading this now it is time to come home. Let Jesus heal you. Joy is the side effect and it feels great.