Yesterday, I got my test results back from a biopsy of a small mass found in the air passage of my lung. I have lung cancer. Don’t know what stage, where it came from, or how bad it is. The news has left me feeling like I am under water holding my breath with no way back to the surface. Ironically, this is not a new feeling for me as I am a spear-fisher and I have gotten myself in these situations many times. The key has always been to wait and see.
This last week I spent a lot of time waiting and I know this next chapter will contain plenty of sitting in waiting rooms, lying on tables, waiting for phone calls. Just like diving in the ocean, I don’t know necessarily what will happen. Will I make it to the surface? Will I have enough air for the journey up? Will something snag on my gear and trap me down there?
The thing is that none of these questions have ever stopped me from making the journey and so far I have always made it back to the light of the surface. I know a lot of you reading this may not be able to relate to my diving comparison so I will move on now 🙂
The hardest part of all this has not been my visit to the hospital, the many needles I have endured, or even the results. No, the hardest part is letting go of my pride and admitting that I am 27 and I have lung cancer. Pride can get the best of you when you allow it to separate you from your community or from the church. I have seen to many people deny help from their community because they did not want to be seen as weak. I understand that and I know that one of my biggest battles with cancer will be fighting my own pride. So to all my community right now I commit to allowing you to help me through this time and to allow the church to be exactly what Jesus has intended it to be.
Here are some ways you can be the church, the body of Christ, for me:
1. Pray for healing
2. Pray for wisdom for the doctors
3. Help me eat better, I don’t know the first thing about what foods I should be eating to help fight cancer… other than avoid MC Ds… so if you have knowledge in that area post links about foods and vitamins in the comments or make me a meal or smoothie and make me drink it 🙂
4. Ask others to pray for me
5. Sarah said my love language is quality time, I agree. (P.S. it is also receiving gifts 😉 (P.P.S. the best gifts are thing I can enjoy with others) (P.P.P.S. JK)
Words of encouragement are always appreciated and I am sure that as things progress I will need to hear those words very much so thank you in advance for standing with me and Sarah during this time.